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Sunday, December 28, 2008

The Homecoming

While I may now pledge allegiance to another land, Singapore will always lay claim to a piece of me as my home country. The tantalizing sights, smells, sounds, and general feel of these familiar surroundings still take me back to more innocent and carefree times, allowing me to be refreshed and rejuvenated during each visit, so that I can return ready to face the challenges commonplace in a more grown-up and jaded reality.

I'm reveling in the simple things,... Like the castanet chirps of a transient house gecko roaming across the ceiling, its slender pale body pressed up firmly against its padded feet. The cheerful "good morning" cries of the yellow-masked myna bird and its other colorful avian brethren who call the Southeast Asian tropics home. The rustling of the heavily-laden branches as my father reaches into them with a basketed wooden pole to pick ripened fruits from the backyard chiku tree; "must pluck them before the birds do", he remarks. The steady purring of the mobile air-conditioner, working hard to keep my melting foreign companion cool. And the food...*sigh*...every single meal we've savored from the hawker stalls, which boast a fusion of the various ethnicities that comprise Singapore culture (e.g., ikan assam pedas)

I love this place.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

A Touch of Class

As my inner socialist cries foul, I must acknowledge that getting upgraded to Business Class on our two-legged 20-hour journey certainly was nice. (Yeah, mileage plus points!) It's so true what they say..."once you experience the 160-degree recliner seats and elevated foot rest, it's tough to go back." (Okay, maybe no one has said it yet, so I'm claiming it.) Some of the perks we enjoyed in this more spacious setting:
  • Legroom, legroom, legroom!
  • Welcome pouch of goodies, including practical travel items like ear plugs, sleep mask, lotion, toothbrush and toothpaste, and a pair of bathroom slippers.
  • Tasty menu designed by world renowned chefs like Charlie Trotter.
  • Mid-flight on-demand snacks, like warm peanuts, Ghiradelli chocolates, and cup-o-noodles.
  • Roaming flight attendants who kept our glasses of water bottomless.
I propose a more age-based (vs. economically-based) status-class structure. How 'bout... Everyone over the age of 35 should always be assigned a Business Class ticket; and First Class tickets should be reserved for the grey hairs (say, 60 or older), out of respect. Yup, this 36-year old would certainly vote for that.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Christmas over the Pacific

'Tho the first leg of our journey to Singapore lasted only 11 hours, our interception with the International Date Line meant that most of our Christmas eve and Christmas Day were spent crossing the Pacific Ocean. We kept ourselves and those around us festive with our Santa hats, but otherwise -- except for our United Airlines pilot who was part of the Santa hat club -- there were few signs that the date was December 25th on our flight and here at Narita Airport in Tokyo. I got lucky on Google and learned a bit about how Christmas is regarded here in Japan. Anyway, we're enjoying the smiles and pleasant wishes (accompanied by polite bows) while walking through the airport in our pommed red and white chapeaux. Merry Christmas, everyone!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

"Don't Forget to Breathe"

That's her constant mantra in Pilates-Yoga class, but often the last thing that enters my mind when sustaining a challenging pose. Her misty Professor Trelawney voice floats around the room as she stealthily glides from one body to the next, shifting a tense shoulder here, adjusting a trembling foot there, ensuring that all her students have achieved the correct stance.

"Yes,...YES!" she declares gleefully in a hushed cry as she gazes proudly at the lineup of statues she has molded. She savors a deep breath and then proceeds to hypnotically guide us into another core-strengthening position.

After an hour of down-face dogs, cat stretches, saluting the sun, bridges, the 100s, and all manner of contorting drills using the Magic Circle, she releases us from her spell to return to the innocence of child's pose. That's when we can truly experience her mantra, spent but invorigated, with limp arms flopped at our sides, our damp brows resting heavily on the mat.

"Breathe..."

Monday, December 15, 2008

Playing Saws

Our clock radio drew me out of slumber with some festive but haunting tunes today. Festive 'cos, upon a close listen, they were familiar Christmas carols. Haunting 'cos they were wailing renditions of the traditional songs, created by...playing saws.

I was first introduced to this alternate use of handsaws in the early 90s French film, Delicatessen, where a pair of soulmates (of macabre persuasion) duet on a rooftop with their bows and serrated tools. I recall being unexpectedly mesmerized by the long sustaining vibrato of each deliberate note.

Learn how to play one here. Oddly fascinating stuff!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

La Vida 2008

Here's my playlist of songs* that hold some special significance for me this year.
A shout out to YouTube, our modern-day surrogate for the after-school bliss of non-stop music videos during the "I Want My MTV!" era of the 80s. Maybe the new MTV Music site will redeem those lost years.

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*Not necessarily released in 2008.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Breakfast at McDonald's...

...in an atmosphere that might be associated with "the other side of the tracks" but just a few blocks from trendy DuPont Circle. Happy Meals feature "My Little Pony" and "Mistika Bionacle" miniatures as gender-suggestive treasures. Promptly at 11, a young worker with muscular arms emblazened with fresh tattoos reaches up to flip the menu boards, replacing the breakfast items with lunchtime highlights. The Eagles croon overhead, hinting at the sins of Hotel California, appropriate for this audience of former Vietnam era vets in weathered trench coats and unkempt beards.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

MUNI Musings

Snapshots on the outbound M-line, Jason Mraz's "I'm Yours" spinning on the iPod.
"Open up your mind and see like me"
  • Elderly Asian man, rugged face sliced with creases, a plastic bag full of joss sticks bouncing against his knee with each lurch of the train.
"Listen to the music of the moment, people, dance and sing"
  • Dozing student, fashionably-ripped jeans revealing a square inch of an albino white thigh. A stark contrast to dark tanned hands clasped across her lap.
"Scooch on over closer, dear"
  • Young artist propped against the exit railing, wrist moving quickly, eyes glancing up and down as surrounding images are transferred onto his sketchpad,...including a pretty visage in peaceful slumber.
"So I drew a new face and I laughed"
  • Slouching grey-hair in oversized khaki suit, chewing gum incessantly, twiddling thumbs over a pair of coy phoenixes on his Marriage Equality tote bag.
"You best believe, best believe I'm yours"

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Ode to Babette

When my beau resolved to part with Babette,
I was the one to fluster and fret.
She was his first - the first bass he owned,
Over 17 years, their fellowship had grown.

Her chest-thumping rifts caused many hands to raise,
With him, her sole purpose was devoted to Praise.
How could he release her bright crimson torso,
To a complete stranger for a coupla Benjies,...o.b.o.?

(Bridge)
She headlined as "Hohner B2A Headless Bass" on Craigslist,
His narrative for her specs I found quite impressive:
Solid American maple body; smooth 24-fret rosewood fingerboard over maple neck; Steinberger licensed hardware; 2 Select pickups designed by EMG; Active Bass Boost switch; soft case included.

Mr. Short Red Beard who took her away,
Look after her well, we may meet again some day
On a another stage, in a more secular venue,
Until then, sweet Babette, we will certainly miss you.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Dismantling Maxtor

I'm recalling my first intro to blogs, years ago... I was peering over my guy's shoulder at his monitor, grinning in amusement over his shaking head. Our cellist friend had posted a series of photos she had taken while dismantling her toaster. Or was it a VCR...? Anyway, here's our version -- a tribute if you will -- to commemorate that moment, seemingly eons ago, and to bid farewell to our defunct harddrive.


Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Pausing for Veterans

As we pause to honor the veterans of this country, surviving and fallen, on this day, I'm also reflecting on war and the reason for it; and the shifting demographic that now includes an influx of young veterans returning to an economically-challenged society, with PTSD and other assimilation problems of their own.

According to the U.S. Census Bureau, as of 2007...
  • There are 23.6 million military veterans in the U.S. 9.3 million of them are 65 and older. 1.9 million are younger than 35.
  • Five states have at least 1 million veterans -- California (2.1 million), Florida (1.7 million), Texas (1.7 million), New York (1.1 million), and Pennsylvania (1.1 million).
  • Six million veterans have a service-related disability.
  • In 2006, government spending for veterans benefits ($72.8 billion total) went to compensation and pensions (48%), medical programs (46%), and other programs like vocational rehabilitation and education.
  • The National Coalition for Homeless Veterans estimates that at least 1/3 of the nation's homeless are veterans.
Regardless of my views on war, I respect and appreciate all of you for your sacrifice and service. For those of you who are already home, I wish you the best care; and may the ones who are still away return to us safely.

Monday, November 10, 2008

"The time has come," the walrus said...

..."to talk of many things: Of shoes and ships - and sealing wax - of cabbages and kings." -- from The Walrus and the Carpenter by Lewis Carroll.

On a recent mission to augment my beau's wardrobe, we poked into an eclectic store in Berkeley that featured very cool and original hoodies, t-shirts, and caps. Founded by Oakland native Matt Revelli, the line was created "to fill the fashion void between culture-based brands of clothing...with the belief that numerous social influences such as art, music, skateboarding, basketball, and street life could be combined into one brand of clothing that celebrates contemporary urban lifestyle without excluding anyone." (DrJays.com)

Will probably check out the rotating exhibits at their San Francisco gallery, Fifty24SF, currently featuring the "visceral" artwork of Paul Insect.

The Power of Gratefulness

Here's a condensed version of an "inspiring speech" that I delivered over the weekend at my Toastmasters club's multipurpose extravaganza (i.e., Speak-A-Thon / Fundraiser / Pre-Holiday Celebration). May you be inspired...

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Would you describe yourself as someone who “lives gratefully”? Do you take some time, once in a while, to pause and think about all the things that you’re grateful for? In recent years, I’ve discovered that this practice is good for me.

In looking back on those hurricane relief trips we took to Louisiana and Mississippi, the life lessons that the survivors of the Storm taught me were far more significant than any physical help we gave them. In the midst of a huge jumble of emotions, the one that emerged from this disaster as a source of strength for many of the residents we talked to was…the feeling of gratefulness that they even survived. Even though they had lost all of their worldly possessions and everything seemed out of their control, they were humbled and grateful for what they did have left. It may not have been much, but it was what they could cling on to, as an anchor so that they could look ahead at getting their lives back in order. What a humbling perspective that was for me.

I caught another glimpse of the "power of gratefulness" in my friend, Ms. R, whose mother has pancreatic cancer. When her mom was diagnosed earlier this year, the doctors had predicted that she probably wouldn’t survive more than 4 to 6 months. It was Month 10 when Ms. R gave me this update. I was struck by how Ms. R calmly described how grateful she was to have these extra months with her mother – “bonus months”, she called them. I marveled at how she seemed so at peace and grateful, while facing the reality that her mother won’t be around for much longer.

Making it a habit to be conscious of the things we're grateful for in life has been shown to have a positive impact in many ways. The Research Project on Gratitude and Thanksgiving, for example, suggests that you can increase your sense of well-being and create positive social effects just from counting your blessings. Living gratefully and living simply also seem to go hand-in-hand. When we are grateful for what we have, we tend to appreciate “the simple things” more – e.g., the kindness of others, the beauty of nature, etc. And when tough times hit, we may be more ready to remember and cling on to those things that we’re grateful for, in order to endure the challenge.

So I ask you, "What are YOU grateful for?"

Friday, November 7, 2008

We Asians...


...can be so weird.


And brilliant!

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Life goes on...

...with a restrained skip and a jump. While I've long outgrown the naive expectation that epic events -- such the election of Barack Obama as this nation's 44th President -- will be able to "change everything", I am still basking in the ray of hope that is emanating from the outcome of this Election.

Granted, after the glow fades and we give our last round congratulatory hugs, we will each return to life as usual, digging in to face the realities and challenges of everyday life. Granted, after the President-Elect took a couple of deep breaths (if that) to savor his victory, he hunkered down with his camp to start devising a strategy to bushwhack our way out of a fairly thick mess.

But despite the bumps (and boulders) in our personal and the nation's political roads, I, for one, am forging ahead with an extra spring in my step, optimistic that the hope for change he has been speaking and writing about is not all that audacious.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Congratulations, Mr. President-Elect

OMG!!! Enuf said.

It's a Beautiful Day to VOTE!

My first Election Day as a U.S. citizen and registered voter began with a bleary-eyed peek through our bedroom curtains at a brightening clear day. Like any other day, we climbed into our exercise clothes and headed out for an early morning workout. Unlike other days, though, we made a couple of extra turns to scope out our neighborhood polling place en route to the Y. The lights in the community center poured out onto the dim street, but otherwise, all was quiet 45 minutes before the polls were to open.

We took another detour past the building on our way home. This time, the venue was a little "livelier" with a couple of volunteer greeters flanking the doorway and a lone picketer pumping his triceps with a "Vote No on 8" sign outside the property perimeter.

Two hours later -- after a regular breakfast, a couple of conference calls, folding laundry, and "freshening up" -- we finally returned to the polling place for its primary purpose. There were noticeably more people, but not the lines or fanfare seen at other locations around the country. But I didn't mind. While enjoying my own mental voting party and the company of my voter buddy, I appreciated being outnumbered by friendly volunteers who efficiently directed me to the check-in desk and then to the eSlate polling booth.

Those 6 minutes in that black-curtained booth were among the most empowering of my life.

An estimated 13.6 million California voters are expected to cast ballots today.
As of 4:30PM, Pacific time, 4,031,535 people on Facebook had voted.

This is certainly an incredible day...to change the world.

Monday, November 3, 2008

'Twas the Day Before Elections...

Some images and voices that are characterizing this Election Day eve for me:
  • Dueling day-laborers on opposite street corners, gyrating wildly while carrying large signs with the names of rival local candidates.
  • Surge of e-mails from friends and family, in the U.S. and abroad, advising me on my Presidential pick based on excerpts from "unbiased sources" and self-proclaimed pastor prophets.
  • Radio and TV news talk shows asking the same question, "Are you approaching this year's election differently from other ones?"
  • YMCA locker room conversations among retirees who will be volunteering at the polls tomorrow, excitedly quipping about their much earlier-than-usual start to Election Day and the expected overwhelming turnout.
  • Joining my co-worker in casting damp eyes to the ground and nonchalantly rubbing reddened noses as she recounted powerful emotions when she and her long-time partner received their marriage license at San Francisco City Hall last week. "We are officially part of each other's families now."
I'm probably pausing longer than most to savor each and every moment associated with this Election, seeing as this will be my first voting experience. But considering a black man is a major party nominee for the U.S. Presidency, and gay marriage is on the State ballot,... My guess is that, regardless of the outcome of these and other socially significant contests, the historic nature of this Election will no doubt be burned into the memories of all Americans, and perhaps even the world.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

R.I.P, Studs

Studs Terkel, the father of oral histories, left us with thousands of personal accounts of "life of the common folk" when he passed away on Friday. He had inspired me and others (like NPR and its Story Corps) to follow in his footsteps in collecting recorded glimpses of everyday life. An oral time capsule, created by just taking the time to listen.

Friday, October 31, 2008

Blood Bank Musings

"Can I get someone who's an expert with butterfly needles?" I asked hopefully, catching a glimpse of my right hand involuntarily rubbing the crook of my left arm. "You have difficult veins?" the receptionist probed, peering at me over the top of silver-framed spectacles. She smiled reassuringly as I nodded slowly. "Just tell the intake nurse that your veins are hard to find."

(20 minutes later)

We held our breaths as my droplet of blood hovered at the center of the blue liquid. After a few quick glances at the second hand on the wall clock, the nurse leaned back as the crimson disc drifted listlessly to the bottom of the vial. "Longer than 10 seconds," she remarked. "You may not have enough iron in your blood," she continued, proceeding to collect a larger sample of blood by jabbing another thin tube into my middle finger, which was still throbbing slightly from the earlier pinprick. "But I will need to run more sample in a centrifuge to know for sure." She slipped out of the room quickly, leaving me thinking, "Not another rejection!" *insert exaggerated grimace*

(10 minutes later)

"Your hematocrit level needs to be at least 38%," the nurse prefaced when she returned. She paused for dramatic effect as I shifted to the edge of my seat. "You're at 40%!" she declared with a big grin. "So you can donate today, but,..." She leaned towards my exposed arms and poked the insides of my elbows. "Go get a cup of juice first, so that your veins will 'pop out' more." I did as I was told, deciding not to reveal that I was already feeling quite waterlogged. My veins are just stealthy that way.

(20 minutes later)

"Nothing," the phlebotomist whispered, staring blankly at the empty tube, then at the needle in my left arm. She gave me an apologetic look, then grabbed the wings of the butterfly again. I turned away as she gave it a slight twist. "Got it!" she exclaimed. I expelled a sigh of relief and turned to gaze at the dark red fluid coursing through the plastic tube into the pint-sized bag.

(9 minutes later)

"You're all done!" I hadn't realized until I heard those words that that I had been in a tense state for the past hour. I became acutely aware of my shoulders relaxing and my breaths deepening as I beamed proudly at the plump red bag lying next to me.

See you nice Blood Bank people in 8 weeks!

Friday, October 24, 2008

It's a Girl Thang

This has been a good week. Among other reasons, I reconnected with four girlfriends with whom my one-on-one catch up time was long overdue. The revival of these neglected ties gave me a renewed appreciation for the importance of female friendships.

Interestingly, I encountered these four women during different phases of my life - in my teen years, in college, at work, and as a new Christian. In reflecting upon our rendezvous via Skype video conference, phone call, dinner date, and a mid-afternoon visit, respectively, I marveled at how our friendships had evolved over the years, and how far we've come in life since we first met. They are reminders of the journey that has led me to this resting spot. And they will help me find my bearings as I forge ahead.

Here's a shout out to J.A.G.S., the special women who warmed my heart this week. You may not know each other, but you each hold special places in my heart.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

"There's no wax on them..."

...explained the tan Latino man in the plaid shirt, hands tucked into his jeans pockets. "These come straight from the farm." But his customer wasn't satisfied. Holding up a brown-spotted Fuji apple and shaking her head, she insisted, "But they don't look fresh when the skin wrinkles up in just a day or two. They still taste sweet, but they just don't look good like in the stores." The farmer pulled his hands out of his pockets, crossed his arms, and shrugged. "Try putting them in the fridge," he suggested, matter-of-factly.

I love people-watching at the Farmer's Market. The Fujis were the sweetest I had ever tasted -- thanks to the samples provided in tupperware containers -- so I splurged and picked up $5 worth (or 6 apples). Our motto is "Once we go Farmer's Market, we can't go back". Not too catchy, but true. Chain grocery store fruits just aren't as flavorful. Thanks to our local Farmer's Market, eating fruit is enjoyable for me again, like "back home" in Singapore, when we plucked chikus and bananas straight from our backyard trees and devoured them right there.

As for whether waxing is good for fruit, I found at least one source that says so. But I prefer mine fresh and "unwaxed", thanks.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Maggie, Barack, and Me

...and my co-pilot, of course.  We took a 4-day roadtrip down to SoCal recently with our newly-adopted Magellan GPS, the Roadmate 1412 (a.k.a. "Maggie"); and the Senator from Illinois, who accompanied us via dramatic recorded reading of his book, The Audacity of Hope on CD (see excerpt). The four of us turned out to be quite compatible traveling companions.

Truth be told, Maggie got the cold shoulder from me when she first joined us.  I pride myself in having a better sense of direction than most and often claimed the role of chief navigator among my friends after I left the nest of my wise Mother who groomed and mentored this course-plotting grasshopper.  So when Maggie entered my travel world, I felt threatened.  And with good reason, as her confident commands and forecasting of upcoming streets endeavored to usurp my powers and render my map-rustling directions obsolete.  But she is slowly proving herself worthy of my respect.  I'm learning to swallow my pride each time she detours us away from traffic jams and covers for me when I've misplaced a map.  Granted, we're no BFFs, but I'm appreciating her more these days.

As for Mr. Obama, he certainly knows how to captivate this audience,...though perhaps not enough to prevent occasional snoozes when he launches into excessive detail.  Anyway, I need to finish the remaining 1/3 of his inspiring narrative by its library due date on Friday.  Then, onwards to Faith of My Fathers by his presidential opponent John McCain.  As I've always believed and Barack clearly articulates, "No one is exempt from the call to find common ground."

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

"Thin Line Between Heaven and Here"

Some wisdom from Bubbles, a Baltimore Police Department "C.I." (confidential informant, snitch) on my latest free-time addiction, The Wire. We were so captivated by the first disc of Season 1 that, on the same day we dropped it in the mail to Netflix, we dashed out to pick up the second one from Blockbuster...and finished watching and returned it.

I almost wet my pants during the Kitchen scene in Season 1, Episode 4. And I'm fearing for Bubbles. Not sure if I can wait another day for the next installment. *wringing hands*

Monday, September 29, 2008

Just chill...

My two most recent hometowns, ranked in the top five of America's most stressful cities? That explains my increasing need for regular massages. (Not the fact that, in my wiser years, I'm pulling muscles that I didn't even realize I had, from routine daily activities like...getting out of the car).

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Happy Birthday! Now let's save the world.

Congrats, Google, on 10 years of transforming the WWW and becoming a commonly-used verb in our daily lives. Here's to a googol more years and changing the world through this awesomely altruistic move. Bravo, guys.

Oh, this is too cool...

Courtesy of South Park Studio.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Senior Moments

I've found myself in the company of more Elders than usual lately (besides my two favorites). Here are some snippets...

"When I was younger, we just voted for the person we agreed with. We didn't have to deal with all this filth and dirt!" - Octogenarian sitting next to me in the waiting room, disgustedly throwing aside her newspaper with the headline, "McCain Says Obama's Lipstick Remark was Wrong".

"My younger brother is 78 years old." - Grinning white-haired student wearing spectacles on a beaded chain, participating in my father's ESL class.

"Don't worry, dear. You'll get it...eventually." - Smug fellow PiYo classmate at my local Y. She and the other grey-hairs in the class have proven (so far) to be much more flexible and agile than me. I'll show 'em...or at least catch up! They must've been star athletes in their prime...

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

And now we wait...

In the 15 days after Labor Day weekend, we loss sleep watching all 34 episodes of the show (23 in Season 1, only 11 in Season 2 due to the Writer's Strike) on DVD. During the 2 weeks that followed, our quieter evenings, while pleasant in each other's company, were interrupted with occasional silent looks of "what do we do now?" and forlorn gazes out the window as we restlessly wrung our hands in anticipation of the 3rd installment.

The wait finally ended yesterday with a 2-hour premiere at the end of a long day of slapping the proverbial vein. Yatah!! While not as riveting as Season 1, Heroes will likely captivate us for yet another season. The difference now, though, is that we'll have to endure the hiatus between each weekly airing. Practicing the Zen of Patience...

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

“Put silk on a goat, and it's still a goat.”

They're back! En route to Kaleo Cafe (one of our favorite wi-fi spots) today, I caught a glimpse of the bearded brown-scarfed gardeners grazing on the hillside at Laguna Honda Hospital. Apparently this is the 4th year that the City has brought in 600 South African Boer goats from Monterey County's Sycamore Farms for this late-summer landscaping project: to munch on 22 acres of overgrown vegetation to reduce rat and yellow jacket (wasp) habitat and the chance of fire.

I was especially amused by the RFP for this job, which said "clearing must be performed by goats and supervised by goatherders who will stay on site with the goats to monitor cutting activity... The city to be held harmless for any loss of goats, theft or otherwise." HI-Larious!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Seven Years Later

Sorrow makes us all children again - destroys all differences of intellect. The wisest know nothing. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Shakespeare had his cannabis...

(more about that)...and I have, as my occasional source of inspiration, Theobroma cacao, Greek for “Fruit of Gods", a.k.a. chocolate.

At 5:15 AM this morning -- a mere 5 hours after retiring from an invigorating evening of imbibing (with my fellow Wednesday Whine & Diners) in copious amounts of chocolate, infused in a mousse cake from Schubert's Bakery; and then an extra thick serving of hot cocoa from Blue Danube Cafe -- my eyes flipped open and darted about the room in the quiet darkness. My mind and heart were racing, my adrenaline pumping,...I was experiencing a Dawn Phenomenon. Tossing and turning with all my might, I couldn't power down, and sprung out of bed to face the dim still-awakening day. Scribbling frenetically in the shadows, I downloaded the dozens of ideas from my head into my journal and on scraps of paper lying around.

Then I went swimming.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Meek vs. Weak

One of the less flattering descriptions that I've heard of American culture is "aggressive". It follows that a characteristic that's probably not seen as desirable here is "meekness". But from studying the word more closely, I realize this is a trait I want to strive to master.

The word "meek" is often associated with "weak" and conjures up images of someone who is timid, bland, unambitious, and...well, wimpy. It's origins, though, tell a different story. The Bible associates meekness with humility, with the notion that we are greatly humbled by our insignificance relative to a much higher power, God. Merriam-Webster describes "meek" as a Middle English word of Scandinavian origin, related to mjūkr, Old Norse for gentle; and defines it as "enduring injury with patience and without resentment".

Now this doesn't mean meek people should let themselves be stepped on. Contraire, people who are meek (based on this definition) are convicted in their belief, which shifts their focus from themselves to something much larger that motivates everything that they do -- like exhibiting patience in sucky situations, showing kindness and reaching out to others, and just being concerned about the welfare of other people.

I like the way our Pastor summarized it:
"Weakness is thinking less of yourself. Meekness is thinking of yourself less."

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

"You have generous tonsils!"

I wasn't sure whether to beam with pride or recoil awkwardly at the doctor's comment. He must have picked up my conflicting vibes 'cos he followed up quickly with, "It's nothing to worry about. Doesn't look like strep or anything. They just look...'generous'!" What an odd use of that adjective. He laughed heartily to himself, then proceeded to intently tomahawk my knee with a reflex hammer.

Just one of the several "interesting" characters I encountered during my work-related medical monitoring exam today.

Then there was my assigned Newbie Nurse, who felt compelled to leave me for 15 minutes before each test to confer with a more experienced counterpart, returning each time with the well-rehearsed line, "So sorry for the long wait." (The first time he said it, I smiled and shrugged. After the fifth time,...sorry, dude; you get a blank stare.)

And I can't forget Vein-Hunting Nurses #1, #2, and #3, who each took turns rubbing, slapping, tourniqueting, and stabbing various parts of my arm and hand, while I continually clenched and relaxed my fist. I've always known my veins are hard to find, but this was by far the most enduring expedition. Then just moments before I let a tear sneak out -- EUREKA! -- Nurse #3 hit gold and was able to collect enough sample to fill the vials. (It's a tough job being a pin cushion.)

Good inspiration for a blog entry, but...those occupational health folks wore me out.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Save the Wetlands, Save The World

Excuse the melodrama in the title (no doubt evoked by my recent obsession with a certain show), but the importance of wetlands -- especially coastal wetlands along the Gulf -- has been ignored and undervalued for too long.

"Mr. ['Blackie'] Campo gives his wetlands habitat only 50 more years before it is gone," a New York Times reporter wrote from Shell Beach, Louisiana, about an old fisherman's prediction in 1988. In 2004, National Geographic posted an article that eerily forecasted the devastation that would be credited to Hurricane Katrina a year later.

The crux of the matter... Coastal wetlands are a natural levee system. They protect the coast from storms by absorbing the energy of strong waves. Since the 1930s, a huge chunk of wetlands about the size of Delaware (2,000 square miles) has been destroyed to build hundreds of canals for oil exploration and ship traffic; and drained for development and farming. The wetlands have been torn apart and weakened, certainly by massive storms, but also by us humans, which cause the deadly effects of storms like Katrina to be so much greater. Considering that >30% of America's fisheries and 25% of oil and gas come from or through Louisiana's coastal wetlands, this problem affects the entire nation. Louisiana has the highest rate of wetland loss - about a football field every 20 minutes -- and 80 percent of the country's total loss of wetlands has occurred there.

Enter the age-old question: Can a balance be reached between environmental conservation and progress? The idealist in me cries, "Heck yeah!" I'm glad folks smarter than me are working on this one.

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P.S. When we visited the Shell Beach Memorial in August, we met the grandson of Mr. Campo, the old fisherman who was featured in the NYT and NG articles (above). I can still picture the streetwise-looking teenager perched on his bike, describing to us in his strong Cajun accent about how "Grand-daddy was rescued from the rooftop by a helicopter during The Storm." He then told us that Grand-daddy passed away at age 90 just a month ago.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

74.7 degrees, 78%

That was the temperature and humidity in the hazy "back room" of Cigar King at the heart of Skokie on the outskirts of Chicago. A dripping humidifier in the far corner pumped out a moist cloud like a smoke machine in a 70s dance club. The space, the size of my first studio apartment, was lined from floor to ceiling with hundreds of boxes of imports -- ranging from unlabeled hand-rolled ones for $2.95 each to high enders for a couple of Jacksons.

The testosterone level would have registered at "TILT" if there was a meter for that on the premises. Although no one looked askance in my direction, I could tell I had stumbled into a secret haven that rivaled the Water Buffaloes Lodge, or more seriously, the Free Masons. After purchasing a box of Drew Estates' Acid Kuba Kuba and a couple of Lars Tetens, I soaked in the decor of the main "rec" room as we made a quick exit -- walls adorned with mounted animal heads and stuffed raptors; a couple of old but badass-looking mafia-types sizing up their shots at a pool table; a dozen half-occupied leather lazy boy recliners arranged neatly before two flat screen TVs broadcasting the Cubs vs. Phillies.

I gratefully gulped in a lungful of fresh air when we emerged into the sunlight. Strangely, I felt older, wiser, and more experienced after having stepped into that other world.

Hooked on Heroes

I had heard so much about the series but hadn't watched a single episode until our Chicago-bound flight over the weekend. Amazing!! My relentless craving for originality is being temporarily satiated as I race to catch up on Seasons 1 and 2 of the show before its 3rd run launches on September 22nd...in 18 days, 22 hours, 25 minutes, and 30 seconds...(as my addictive alter-ego goes "raaar!")

Friday, August 29, 2008

Three years after The Storm

"The Storm." That's how everyone I've met along the U.S. Gulf Coast refers to Hurricane Katrina. Just like the 1989 Loma Prieta Earthquake is "the big one" to San Franciscans; and how Chicagoans call the 1871 Chicago Fire the..."Chicago fire".

Earlier this month, we returned to St. Bernard Parish in Louisiana with 28 others from our church to help the St. Bernard Project. Our group was split up to work on four homes in the towns of Violet, Meraux, and Chalmette to mud and sand the walls and get them ready for texturing and painting. These communities were flooded by up to 15 feet of water when Katrina-generated waves breached the surrounding levees on August 29, 2005.

My team was assigned to the home of "Chalmettian" Ms. Karen, a former cop on disability from an aneurysm that struck her a few days before The Storm. When Katrina roared through town, despite her impairment, Ms. Karen joined her husband and son in rescuing countless neighbors from drowning by shuttling them by boat to the 2nd floor of a nearby school when floodwaters rushed down their streets. I still can't -- and don't really want to -- shake the stories that she shared with us while sitting on the aluminum steps of her trailer, where she still lives with her family adjacent to her house. Horrifying and sobering stories of the utter chaos and ugliness of human nature during a major time of crisis, and heart-warming stories of neighbors who reached out with a helping hand when no one else would.
I've certainly grown and matured -- and been jaded by -- our hurricane recovery trips these past couple of years. The memories I cherish most are from enriching interactions with the locals and long-term volunteers. Brave, resilient, gracious, inspiring, heroes. That's how I will always remember them.

Today's top stories

This post is less about what's making headlines, rather more about what isn't but should. First, the reality about some historic happenings today:

McCain picks female running mate (BBC)
Gustav aims for Grand Cayman, Cuba; Gulf Coast prepares (USA Today)
Obama takes the fight to McCain (New York Times)

I'm especially wondering, though, on this 3-year anniversary of Hurricane Katrina, about the latest news on recovery efforts around the world. How are the survivors and recovery workers doing in post-Katrina Louisiana and Mississippi (and now with Gustav looming); post-earthquake Sichuan, China; and post-cyclone Burma?

Saying a prayer for the forgotten.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

And my vote goes to...

It began with my decision in January to take the big step. Then came the lengthy paperwork, which I dropped into the mailbox with a weighty *thud* a couple of weeks later. I recall wondering how long its journey through "the system" would take. In May, an official colorfully-watermarked letter arrived to confirm that my application was being processed, along with news of my appointment date and a 15-paged Cliff's Notes of American History. After some cramming, I took a deep breath, gulped down a shot of hot cocoa, and marched into the cold stone building for the interview. A few weeks later, another letter arrived, telling me that I had been approved for naturalization (or, as some friends call it, "de-alienation", and my favorite, "final assimilation").

[hands clasped, verklempt] "You like me! You must really like me!"

On July 15, I joined a wonderfully diverse group of 1,456 applicants representing 110 countries to take the naturalization oath in a grand ceremony at the Masonic Auditorium. My most memorable moments - when I whooped loudly with everyone else at the MC's declaration that "You will no longer have to stand in long immigration lines!"; and when each of the 110 countries were announced, some of which no longer exist (e.g., Czechoslovakia, the USSR, and Yugoslavia).

At the conclusion of the ceremony, I pushed through the masses with a single focus - Must...Register...To...Vote! As we round the final bend of this very historic election year, needless to say, I'm freakin' ecstatic to be a part of it!

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Jumping on the inside

Working at a hip wi-fi cafe downtown. Maybe a furrowed brow will help me focus on the assignment at hand on my white laptop screen. Distracted by my work buddy's occasional glances at the adjacent wall, where M.I. 3 is playing in closed-captions. The amps are pumping out some good stuff. Concentrating hard not to bounce out of my seat as House of Pain yells for me to "jump up, jump up, and get down!" Aw yeah...

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Today I learned...

...'tis the season for berries, peaches, plums, pluots, and nectarines. After a delicious mid-morning snack of fruit samples at the Serramonte Farmer's Market, I settled on four white peaches, four yellow nectarines, and three boxes of perky raspberries from three different vendors with winning smiles. That should last us six desserts, or two days. At $2/lb , this "shop for produce at farmer's market" resolution is getting costly, but I'm kept motivated by the undeniable freshness and flavor, and merits of buying local.

...Saturday mornings are prime time for cashing in on recyclables. The two recycling centers on my errand route had long lines of sellers hauling 30-gallon trash bags stretched thin and bursting with empty cans and bottles. Mr. S., a homeowner where I volunteer, built his back deck using several months of redemption funds from recyclables.

...our neighbors down the hill consider stopping at Stop Signs optional. (Visitors, be warned.)

...my mind, body, and soul are still most content at an optimal ambient temperature (according to the bank time & temperature reading) of 73 degrees.

Friday, June 20, 2008

A Spare the Air Adventure

The Bay Area declared yesterday a free transit day, as part of its Spare the Air campaign. As with most other freebies, my family had been eagerly anticipating the chance to make the most of this event. So I wrapped up work early and joined them on an excursion downtown via public transit.

MUNI bus 9x took us through the most interesting segment of our trip, from the Popeye's at the corner of Mission and Geneva, where its Chinese workers joke fluently in Spanish with their Latino clientele,...past the iconic Cow Palace, whose many friends are protecting it from going the way of Bay Meadows,... through the Sunnydale projects (or "the Swamps" to locals), where we passed several pairs of SF's finest perched on their dirt bikes, getting to know the neighbors.

When we finally reached our destination an hour later, we had been worn down by the jack-rabbit starts and stops, rising mercury level, and sweaty cramped quarters. Strangely, we found comfort in the familiar bustle of Chinatown, where personal space is nonexistent. We relaxed for tea time at a coffee shop that served iced Horlicks, like we used to enjoy back home. We spent an hour meandering through tight produce markets, where hawkers yelled, "Cherries! Only 49 cents a pound! Tasty and beautiful, too!" in Cantonese sing-song chants. As we made our way to the bus stop, laden with bags of bargain fruits and vegetables, we passed a poster of Obama adorning the side of a newspaper vending box, with the Chinese tagline "Moving Forward". (A moveon.org campaign?)

Our field trip, which took us on four buses in as many hours, opened my eyes to parts of SF that I had never seen before. While pressed against the pock-marked metal walls of the buses, a welcomed coolness for my bare skin on a balmy day, I gained a greater appreciation for the diversity of this 7x7 town, especially among the working class.

It's Been A Long Time...

...since I've lived in a place where I drove around looking for a parking spot in the shade. Thank you, Global Climate Change.

The Speeding Motorcycle

I realize this is old news, but work kept me from posting sooner. (I know, gotta get my priorities straight.) I wonder if I'll ever master a skill that fetches $60 per anything.

And now, introducing, James and Sirius...
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For the uninitiated -- the horror! -- select Rowling under authors.

Friday, June 6, 2008

Dracula wouldn't be so picky

They rejected me. More nicely (and accurately) put, they "deferred" me until later this year. I'm talking about my visit to Blood Centers of the Pacific today, where after a lengthy survey and an intensive in-person interview, I was shown the door. All because of the question, "Have you been out of the United States in the last 12 months?" Alas, turns out one of my destinations last summer is in an area of "limited malaria risk".

Of course, I understand the concern about transmitting blood that could potentially be infected with malaria; I definitely don't want to risk contaminating the supply. But if they could pre-screen potential donors over the phone, that may save some of us taking time off work and trekking over there, only to be turned away. I told them so, verbally and in writing. Ah well, I should be in the clear 3 months and 3 days from now. In the meantime, I'll enjoy my free t-shirt.

If you haven't donated blood in the last 8 weeks, consider doing so, for these reasons. It's a great habit!

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Who Writes His Speeches?

That's what I'd like to know. The eloquence and authenticity of the script, coupled with an impassioned black rhythm in his delivery, makes me want to burst into hopeful tears and raucous applause each time he addresses a crowd. I will not soon forget the riveting one he gave on March 18th and the one from this historic night. Now, time to forge ahead to turn words into action in the coming years.

iPossessed

Lately, I've been working more with the help of iListen, Mac's speech recognition/dictation software, to "save my hands" (special lingo for those of us with carpal tunnel or other forms of repetitive strain injury). Although I've "trained" the software to recognize my voice, it occasionally transcribes my sentences and simple rustling into meaningless word combinations. Today, I gasped when, while I was adjusting the microphone, the words, "I am home alone" appeared on the screen. Creeeepy...

Monday, June 2, 2008

Mode 3: Flying

I've mastered the art of walking as my main vehicularless mode of travel over the years. Recently, I added swimming to my repetoire, which will come in especially handy if I'm ever thrown overboard or need to swim to the next island. Last weekend, I was blown away (literally) by mode #3: flight. Okay, I suppose the parachute that I'd need if I was hurled out of a plane would be considered a vehicle of sorts, but humor me. If you haven't yet, gotta try indoor skydiving as at least a once in a lifetime experience. W-O-W!! Exhilarating, apparently a good simulation of the real thing, much cheaper, and you use loads less gas. Thanks, KQED, who thanked us with this treat!

Saturday, May 31, 2008

The Interview

Congrats are almost in order after my USCIS interview yesterday (see previous related entry). A few snapshots from the experience:

Before the interview... I'm surrounded by a diverse and colorful crowd crammed into neatly-arranged gold-pleathered chairs in the sterile waiting room. Everyone is "properly attired" as requested in our appointment letter. CNN plays on flatscreens scattered around the room. Shaking legs, downcast stares, and uncertain glances attest to the slight edge in the air. An Indian woman whispers (prayers?) to herself nearby. A USCIS poster of a billowing flag reads, "Securing America's Promise. Respect, Integrity, Ingenuity."

My name is called. I'm led down a stark hallway, then to the right. A stiff "good afternoon" begins the interview.

Afterwards... As I indulge in a steaming hot chocolate capped with whipped cream, I can't seem to stifle the grin that has taken over half my face. I glance over and notice a couple next to me pouring over a "Learn About the United States" study guide. I'm tempted to lean over and say, "You'll do fine...!"

I should receive the date of my swearing-in ceremony within 3 weeks. (Wheee!)

Thursday, May 29, 2008

In Search of Gratification

Our Wednesday W(h)ine & Dine crew treaded on unfamiliar ground yesterday. Meat-lovers, steer clear; the hippie-themed Cafe Gratitude serves up lean and healthy offerings of vegetarian and vegan dishes that "support local farmers, sustainable agriculture and environmentally friendly products." As we soaked in the positive and introspective vibes that permeate the joint, I enjoyed perusing the fun menu of life-loving and self-affirming items, like "I Am Insightful" (spring rolls) and "I Am Elated" (enchiladas).  The latter was quite tasty.

While we marveled at the alternative ingredients in familiar dishes (e.g., pumpkin seed and walnut burger patty on sweet onion sunflower bread), we also found ourselves yearning for more substance to fill us up. As our fellow WW&Der (and omnivore) aptly noted on our way out, the experience made us realize our gratitude for...meat! For $20+ per person, come expecting a unique meal that may satisfy your curiosity, but not necessarily your tummies. Probably not a regular destination for me, but to hear my guy exclaim, "I Am Spectacular!" (for pesto pizza) again,... PRICELESS.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

I Pledge Allegiance...

With my right hand on my chest, I first recited this pledge in a middle school classroom while gazing up at a miniature American flag. I was not a U.S. citizen then, but I recall parroting the words a split second after they left my classmates' mouths, as a show of determination to fit into my strange new surroundings. At the time, I still held fond and vivid memories of chanting another pledge while looking up at my own country's flag from a schoolyard, in a sea of other pony-tailed girls in blue and white uniforms.

25 years later, I finally made the decision to "fully commit" and apply for U.S. citizenship. And on Friday, I will complete the second-to-last step of my naturalization process - the in-person interview.* In preparation, our breakfast table conversations over the past week have been partly devoted to drill sergeant-type testing on American history, based on recommended questions supplied by the Department of Homeland Security. Here's a sampling**:
  • How many stripes are there on our flag and what do they represent?
  • How many changes, or amendments, are there to the Constitution?
  • How many voting members are in the House of Representatives?
  • What did the Emancipation Proclamation do?
  • Name the amendments that guarantee or address voting rights.
Why am I taking the plunge now? My growing commitment to civic responsibility and an extreme "fed-uppedness" gave me that last shove. Citizenship will grant me the right to vote; another angle from which I can help shape the community (and world) I want to live in.

“People often say that, in a democracy, decisions are made by a majority of the people. Of course, that is not true. Decisions are made by a majority of those who make themselves heard and who vote - a very different thing.” - Walter H. Judd

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*The grand finale will be the swearing-in ceremony a few months afterwards (fingers crossed).
**See comment for answers.

Monday, May 26, 2008

In Memoriam

While many of us continue to "celebrate" Memorial Day with sleep-ins, forensics show marathons, and picnics, I expect that during this time of war, more and more are recognizing this day for its original solemn purpose: To pause in remembrance of fallen soldiers. As of today, according to the Military Times, Operations Iraqi Freedom and Enduring Freedom have claimed 4,566 U.S. military lives since Fall 2001. That's in addition to undocumented civilian casualities (guesstimated at almost 100,000 in Iraq) and sacrifices from other countries. Saying a prayer for the families of the deceased and those still in harm's way...

A Lazy Day

Seven episodes into the Memorial Day NCIS marathon later... We've eaten two meals, several fruits, and an entire can of Pringles while planted in front of the TV. Abby rocks.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

The Lineups

A dozen cars were already in line when we joined the Drive-Thru parade outside our local In 'n Out Burger joint. It was an unusually warm (85 deg) night, "sweltering" by Bay area standards, and a large near-midnight crowd packed the parking lot and brightly-lit red-and-white interior. (Pssst..."secret" menu!)
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A dramatic Bollywood movie -- complete with an old man on his death bed, expectant mourners wailing at his side, and dreamy-eyed narrators singing on a rainy stage -- played at the front of the line in the Indian Consulate. While relaxed ex-pats waited patiently, arms crossed, restless business travelers pounded on their laptops to pass the time.

Passing the Baton

My guy had a chance to Pay It Forward the other day. He entrusted the keys to his sporty ride to one of his high school seniors on prom night. Who would have thought he'd have this opportunity to pass along this favor from half a lifetime ago, when an older buddy let him drive his Trans Am to the prom?

We made a similar "payment" a little over a year ago when we hired a string trio for G&J's wedding, just as AN had done as her gift to us on our wedding day. As I recall other good deeds that I've received and plan ways to pass them along, I'm also wondering who will get the cool ride to the prom and musicians at their wedding from our P.I.F. recipients... Let's keep this going!

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

In Squeaks' Kitchen - Pork Adobo

Thanks to Mum's taste tests and input, here's what I threw together to create Pork Adobo for family dinner last weekend.

1 1/2 lbs pork, cubed
5/6 cup soy sauce
1/2 cup vinegar (I used red wine vinegar, but original recipe called for white vinegar)
2 1/4 cup water
1/2 tsp black pepper
1/2 tsp sugar
3 bay leaves
3 cloves garlic
1 medium onion, sliced

Combine all ingredients and simmer at least 1/2 hour. (Longer 'mo better!) We served it with stir-fried choy sum and rice. Thumbs up all around!

Monday, May 12, 2008

Can't Get Enough

What can I say, I'm hooked. Adele's Hometown Glory has kept me from updating Squeaks' Playlist in over 4 weeks. It joins the ranks of only a few songs -- like U2's One, Pearl Jam's Black, Metallica's Nothing Else Matters, Iz's Somewhere Over The Rainbow, Peter Murphy's Cuts You Up, The Cure's Fascination Street, The Frames's Falling Slowly, and David Crowder's O Praise Him -- that I find so haunting and captivating that, each time I play them, it takes a very deep breath and a few quiet moments to shake off the satisfying and tantalizing prickling that consumes me...(a somewhat similar sensation evoked by Radiohead's Creep, a long distance and long-time-ago dedication to an ex,...but that's another story for another day.)

Friday, May 9, 2008

Friday Stress Reliever

Absolute genius. (Thanks, SBK!)

Thursday, May 8, 2008

I spy, with my little eye...

...nothing much, when my glasses are missing!! I have a terrible track record with spectacle-retention these days. It all began a couple of years ago, on Day 1 (of 5) of our first hurricane relief trip to St. Bernard Parish. That's when my glasses mysteriously leapt off my face while my fellow volunteers and I were gutting a flood-damaged home in 95-degree Louisiana weather. The funny thing was that it wasn't until break time, after I had ripped off my sweat-soaked N95 dust mask and thrown my hardhat onto the grassy lawn, that I realized it was not on my face. It took 20 minutes of gingerly stepping and squinting across the lawn before I accepted its fate and likely new home: the towering trash heap that had been created by our gutting efforts.

Two more recent episodes occurred within the last week... Last Friday, I discovered them missing an hour after our final swim in the hotel alberca, but thankfully retrieved them where they had been abandoned, next to our lounge chair. And this morning, one of the lenses decided to pop out when I dropped them in the pool locker room, but, fortunately again, I found it lying on the floor, alone and tinted, when I rushed back to it later.

Maybe it's time for the granny look...

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

What the...??

Headquarters of The Longaberger Company in Newark, Ohio.

Bahía de Banderas

...or "Bay of Flags". That's where we escaped to last week. With Puerto Vallarta nestled at its center, Mexico's largest natural bay is hugged by >40 miles of coastline. The occasion: anniversary and birthday celebrations, and a chance to cash in on travel points! Moments I'm cherishing from the trip...
  • Savoring la buena comida (good food). (Que ricisimo!)
  • Getting a kick out of travel agents calling out "Hey, Honeymooners!" as we passed their stalls, hand-in-hand. (Happy 7-years, Sweetie.)
  • Strolling down the Malecón in El Centro to Playa de los Muertos, and marveling at the unique sculptures and impressive sand "monuments".
  • Shrugging off the SNAFU that cancelled our day-trip to San Sebastián in the Sierra Madre mountains and spending another day by the alberca (pool) instead. (Hey, relax...)
  • Basking in the alberca with my ears submerged in the thick underwater silence. Gazing up at V-shaped flocks of pelicans and Pterodactyl-looking frigatebirds circling above.
  • Forcing myself to use my limited Spanish vocab to warm up to locals who seemed pleased (or at least amused) at the attempts. (Para mi, sopa de tortilla, por favor.)
  • Did I mention la comida? (Es stupenda!)
It was Captain Steuben and his Love Boat crew that first introduced me to Puerto Vallarta as a little girl. Amazing how this idyllic Mexican town on the Pacific Coast still holds romance and intrigue for me, 30 years later.